(Almost) Final Gratitude Two-Parter!

Yesterday and today have been busy days, so I’ll try to sum them up in my gratitude goals.

I am grateful to Barnes & Noble, for letting me interview with them yesterday. I’m grateful to Rice University, for having me in to interview today. I’m grateful to Lois McMaster Bujold, for writing some great books – Curse of Chalion and Paladin of Souls, specifically (I’m rereading them now). I’m grateful to have a hard copy of the Cooking Comically cookbook, because it has some good-looking and simple recipes. I’m grateful for Halloween, even if I’m not in costume, because I like the vibe. And finally, I am grateful for Calla’s progress, because today is the first time she’s said she might be feeling hopeful in a long time.

That’s actually my positive moment, too. I went to go visit her for dinner tonight, and over chicken enchiladas and creamed spinach, we talked about a lot of things – the Menninger staff, how her treatment is going, how she is feeling. We made some jokes, we both laughed, and it was good to see her smiling and laughing and not feeling like it was forced. We kept talking, about things we are afraid of, things we think about, and she said that she wasn’t sure about what she was feeling. She went on to say that she wasn’t sure, but she might be feeling hope, though it had been so long since feeling it that she didn’t remember how it felt. I think it is a big step for her to even think she was feeling it, and I think it’s a big moment in her treatment. Hearing that she might be feeling hope made me feel better than I have since she went into treatment again.

As for exercise, after I peeled myself out of my interview clothes, I went through my Convict Conditioning exercises, though my arms still burn from the inverted pullups the other day. I got some meditation time in just a little bit ago, after coming back from seeing Calla, and so I am feeling nice and relaxed.

As for gratitude, I got to tell several of the staff at Menninger that I was grateful for them while I had been in Menninger, and I was glad they were still there to help Calla (among other people). They seemed pretty happy about that, and giving messages to several people at once cleared out my backlog.

Tomorrow comes the stunning season conclusion of the gratitude challenge – tune in to see how it ends!

Grateful for Argon

Not really, I don’t really know what argon is. But the atomic number of argon is 18, and I was feeling particularly obscure today.

Today, I am grateful for job applications, because they netted me not one, but two interviews – one tomorrow, and one Thursday. I am grateful for my fancy new pullup bar, because now I can do the next step of one of the Convict Conditioning exercises. Finally, I am grateful for The Marvel Avengers Alliance Facebook game, because I’m kind of obsessed with it; I’d also like to grab the Marvel Lego Xbox game.

For a positive experience from the last 24 hours, I think I have to go with earlier today when I got a couple of surprising phone calls about twenty minutes apart. First was a call from a nearby Barnes & Noble, and then came the Rice University HR department about the temp pool. They had both, apparently, decided to check their list of online job applications, and both decided I was worth calling. Neither is really a permanent position, or even a long-term one, but either would work to both keep me busy and structured as well as add something recent to my resume.

For exercise today, I went through the Convict Conditioning exercises, making sure to make use of my new pullup bar – though it’s only at about waist height, because the step I’m on is kind of a reverse pushup. I did a little meditation after I got my interview calls, so I’m all caught up there.

As for messages of gratitude, I’m still working on that; I am still open to suggestions. If you think I should be grateful to you, and I haven’t said anything to you, tell me – I am pretty forgetful, and I don’t mean to be insulting. I just want to know if there are people who feel left out.

Discordian Gratitude

Yeah, I’m stretching a little with my titles, I’m mostly just looking up numbers on Wikipedia and seeing what corresponds with them. As for today, I suppose I ought to get to that, seeing as how we’re nearing the end of this iteration of the challenge.

Today, I am grateful for eggs, because without them I could not have made scrambled eggs with cheese and bacon, and it was good. I am also grateful to hear that Calla is doing better today than she has been the last few days, because her well-being is very important to me. Finally, I am grateful to know that, because I have a Ford Fusion and one of my old friends just purchased a Ford Fusion, we are now car-brothers.

As a positive experience in the last 24 hours, I have to go with cooking again. It’s a solo experience, true, but I find it oddly soothing to be focused on something like food. Also, this way I get to see exactly what goes into my food, and while my food isn’t super-healthy, using no-fat milk and low-fat butter and turkey bacon is probably better than the Canadian Classic pizza from Sarpino’s. It is quite tasty, though. Both my eggs and the pizza.

For exercise today, it is the night for Convict Conditioning exercises, which I thankfully did before my brinner (that is breakfast for dinner), because otherwise my stomach would be going nuts. It seems to be going well so far. Meditation is pretty easy on a slightly fuller stomach, though.

As for a message of gratitude, I’m still working on that, but I am all for suggestions if you think I haven’t been properly grateful to you. No, really, I’m serious.

16, Minimum Age of Gratitude

Today was kind of a slow day, but it did result in some discoveries.

First, I am grateful for the website Cooking Comically, because it is fun to read and provides me with some interesting recipes to try out. Second, I am grateful for spinach-jacks, the first recipe from Cooking Comically that I tried out and had be successful (I also tried the meatloaf, but it turned out not so well). Finally, I am grateful today for the Avengers: Earth’s Mightiest Heroes cartoon, because I like the way it portrays the characters , both hero and villain, in Avengers continuity.

As for a positive experience in the last 24 hours, I got to spend some time working in the kitchen today, and i was kinda fun. I’m not a master chef by any means – I’m barely a beginner – but it is fun to try and cook new things. Ultimately, I’d like to be able to cook some good stuff; maybe the favorite meals of some good friends, or maybe just find some stuff that works really well and is less terrible for me than pizza (don’t get me wrong, I love pizza, but more pizza means more exercise). I like the honey wasabi sauce I’ve managed to whip up.

For exercise today, I just walked around, because I am really sore from yesterday; it turns out that a frustration-fueled workout tends to push me past where I would normally go, and the results are predictable. Meditation was relatively simple, and I had plenty of time to work it in.

As for gratitude, I got to pass some on to a friend, and it was nice to do over the phone as opposed to by e-mail. That’s what I’ve been up to today. 

Now I just wish I could get the smell of meatloaf and failure out of the apartment. Well, really just failed meatloaf.

15 Minutes of Gratitude

Today’s been kind of an interesting day, both in good and bad ways. It certainly lasted for longer than 15 minutes, but  I’ll try to keep it relatively short and sweet.

First, I am grateful for NAMI and their Peer-to-Peer training, because it will hopefully turn out to be helpful both for me and for others around me. Second, I am grateful for Olive Garden, because I grabbed take-out from there for dinner and Calla and I had a decent meal together. Finally, I am grateful for the ability to go and visit Calla, because I really like being around her, and I like to think that my visits give her some small measure of comfort.

As for a positive experience in the last 24 hours, like you may have guessed, I got to go visit Calla today, and while she isn’t feeling so hot, I did get to have dinner with her and get her to eat more than she has in quite a while. We spent a long time talking, though I don’t think she felt comfortable enough to tell me anything I didn’t already know, but I like just being able to be there. I’m not a therapist, and I can’t help her in the same way they can, but I can be there to support her and back her up. Her illness is her dragon to fight, but I can help to carry the things she needs to fight it – metaphorically, that is.

For exercise today, I was a little frustrated with my inability to do much to help Calla, so I came back to my place and worked out, using my frustration as fuel. I worked through the Convict Conditioning exercises, and some kettlebell sets, and even did some work with my broadsword. Meditation I actually handled at the NAMI class, because we do a mindfulness exercise at the end of every class.

As for gratitude, I have someone I am grateful for, but I don’t know how to reach her, and I don’t want to call her out here (especially since I don’t know if she reads my blog), so I’ll just have to keep it to myself until the next time I get a chance to talk to her.

Gratitude the 13th (and 14th)

Once again, I am doing a double-header. I don’t know that my head is really in it right now, considering that I got somewhat…mixed…reactions to my post this morning (which I did, in fact, write in a sort of half-awake state; I wasn’t sure I hadn’t actually dreamt the whole thing until I checked it after finally waking up). But I committed to the challenge (and maybe should be committed, but that’s a separate story). so I shall continue until the end.

I am grateful for Muchkin, the board/card game, because it’s a fun way to play with nerdy things with a group of friends. I am grateful for kombucha, a new drink I got a chance to try earlier – it is in theory healthy, but I won’t hold that against it. I am grateful for 90s music, because it made me feel nostalgic and comforted, and I actually like a fair amount of it. I am grateful for pineapple pizza, which I only started eating recently, but I have discovered a taste for. I am grateful for smoothies, because it gives me a chance for fruit intake i liquid form that tastes damn good. And finally, I am grateful for Ben & Jerry’s ice cream, because I really have a thing for their Americone Dream flavor.

As far as a positive experience, earlier today I got to go out with a friend of mine from the Houston area; we went to an area of town called the Heights, to a place called Boomtown Coffee (where I acquired the aforementioned kombucha), walked around for a while, then checked out a cool little CD/record store called Vinal Edge. Then we went over to a comics and games store, where we got to talk tot he guy running the counter, complain about DC comics, find out about Munchkin (again, as above), and discover a new comic series called Saga. Then we came back to my place and played Munchkin, which was fun, though not as fun as playing it with more people (up to 6). Oh, and I got my first real Texas driver’s license today. So it’s been a pretty cool day so far.

As far as exercise is concerned, I haven’t done it for today yet, but I will, and I still ache from doing it yesterday. Meditation has been handled for both days, which is nice, because otherwise I might have reacted badly earlier today. Meditating helped to calm me down and keep me from doing something rash.

As far as gratitude goes, I’m still not sure what to do with that at the moment. I’ll think it over, and try to get some messages of gratitude out before the night is through.

And with that, I am two-thirds of the way through my challenge. Good night, and good luck.

Ugh. Woke up in cold sweat. Realized I hadn’t blogged. Knew I had to post something or mother would start worrying. Stop worrying about this, mom. Going back to sleep now.