Delaying Tactics

Man, 11 days since my last post? I had no idea it had been so long. Time flies, I guess. It’s been a busy 11 days, so hopefully I can be forgiven for neglecting my blog for so long. When last I wrote, I had just been to church for the second time, and had just finished my first week at my new duties in the receiving area of my store. Things have definitely gotten more interesting since then.

For one thing, I actually managed – with the help of a good friend, who deserves all of the organizational credit, because I would have trouble planning my way out of a paper bag – to run my first session of an RPG called Dungeon World, which I’m sure I have mentioned int he past. The first session was at a nearby game store, and it was me, my friend, and two gals he knew from work (we all work at the same company, just different stores). I thought the first session went really well – people made fun characters relatively quickly, the system didn’t get in the way, and I felt like I was able to improvise pretty smoothly, all fo which seemed to lead to a great first session. I say first, because this week we got together again, this time at my place, and two additional gals showed up – making the demographics 4 women, 2 men, which is weird, but awesome. The two new players again made up new characters quickly, and we finished up the adventure that had been started in the previous session, finally killing the Spider-Witch Florimel and returning some very traumatized children to their families. It was a lot of fun, and a big confidence boost for me, because I had been really worried that I wouldn’t pull it off very well. hopefully we’ll have another game soon.

Also, my birthday was this past Sunday. I turned 35, which sounds like a lot now that I think about it – so usually I try not to, because then it involves me trying to work out how close I am, percentage-wise, to becoming a Steve Carell character. You know the one. I celebrated thusly: on Saturday, after having nabbed the second Captain America movie on Blu-Ray earlier int he week, I started watching all 9 Marvel movies, in in-setting chronological order. I managed to get all the way up to the Avengers before calling it a night, then the next day, my birthday, got through Iron Man 3 and Thor 2 before going out to dinner with three friends, all of whom are awesome. We went to a Brazilian steakhouse called Fogo de Chao, and if you’ve never been to such a place, let me tell you – it’s like a festival of meat. They have a salad bar, but mostly, you sit at your table, and you have a little thing at your place setting – one side is red, the other green. When you flip it to green, servers magically appear with all variety of meats and give you pieces, until eventually you are so full that you get what one of my friends called the ‘meat sweats’. Then, for dessert, two of my friends, both women, rolled out a dessert they had constructed especially for me – a three-tiered pyramid of donuts from various places around Houston. Let me tell you, I was very full at the end of the night, and very happy. If any of y’all are reading, let me say this to my friends and family(both those who were present, and those present in spirit): I love you guys, and each one of you has helped me to have a life worth living. You have made my life so much better by being a part of it.

As for my professional life, I’m mostly used to working in the receiving area of the store now; my back still aches from being on my feet and carrying boxes all day, but it’s far less stressful than customer service for me. And I get to listen to audiobooks, music, and podcasts while I work – so far I’ve made it through Daring Greatly, by Brene Brown, Reality is Broken, by Jane McGonigal, all of the On RPGs podcast, and most of the podcast episodes of the Knights of the Night group dealing with their experiences with Dungeon World. At home, I’ve also been reading through a good book, through it’s taking longer than it normally would because I tend to read before bed, and my new job means that when I get in bed, my body tends to prefer sleep to reading much of the time. The book is called Friendfluence, by Carlin Flora, and it is about how friends influence us, change our lives, and can actually have an impact on our physiological well-being. It’s a pretty good read, and I look forward to finishing it (mostly so I can point out to my friends exactly what their presence is doing to my brain, which seems fun to me). I am still waiting to hear back from the Via Hope group on whether or not I will be accepted into this round of training for Certified Peer Specialists, and I should hear back from them by the 22nd.

All in all, it’s been a busy week and a half, but in a good way. I’ll make an effort to keep my blog more updated, because I know it’s something I have been neglecting, and I have some ideas for other things to write, but right now my body is telling me it was a bad idea to get up this early, so I’m going to listen to it and relax on my day off.



As several readers have mentioned, I did not write a blog post yesterday. This is because yesterday was a pretty busy day, and I didn’t really have time to write a blog post, or the energy to write one after the day was over. Now, though, rested up after a fun and tiring birthday, I can give the after-action report.

After waking up and doing some apartment cleaning (with supplies I received as gifts from my family), I got a chance to talk to both my sister and my parents, which was nice. I also picked up a couple packages from the apartment complex leasing office, meaning that now I have both a vacuum cleaner and a crockpot. Truly, now I am a force to be reckoned with. I also grabbed a copy of my lease agreement, so I can go in to the DMV (or, as Texas calls it, the DPS) on Monday and try to get myself a Texas driver’s license. This seems like a lot of fuss over nothing, but seriously, it requires a lot of work and documentation – and if you don’t believe me, go see for yourself.

After that, I got to go out for coffee with a good friend of mine, and we brainstormed ideas about what to go do with another friend of mine who had asked to do something a bit later. With this second friend, I ended up going to see the Robert DeNiro movie The Family; it was a decent movie, though it seemed a little confused about whether to be a comedy with serious parts or a serious movie with comedic parts. Still, it was fun to see. Then I had about an hour to prepare for dinner.

Dinner ended up being at a place here in Houston called Samurai Japanese Steak & Sushi; it’s one of those places you go where they cook the food on the table in front of you, hibachi-style, and we went on my birthday, so it was extra amusing (there may be pictures forthcoming, but don’t hold me to it). It was five friends and I, and dinner was very good – I ate so much I could barely stand up afterwards. Then two friends and I came back to my place where we played Rock Band and sat around talking until it was no longer my birthday, at which point we all stumbled in the general direction of our beds.

Contrast this with my last birthday, which I don’t remember very clearly except for the fact that it was when I first decided that I would be trying to kill myself, a process that took several months but eventually culminated in an attempt on January 14th of this year. I’d say going from abject despair to having a great night with friends is a pretty big turnaround. So I want to thank my friends and family for making yesterday possible. Today I am 34, and while there are certainly times I wish I was younger, I don’t think there’s a better group of people I could be around. I hope all your birthdays are as good as mine.

Is This Thing On?

No, I won’t be mentioning any more about the responses I get here, I just liked this title. Today, like many Thursdays, has been a busy day. I saw my vocational counselor, who is recommending that I retake the MBTI (Myers-Briggs Type Indicator) personality indicator. Last time I took it, I was rated as an INTP – Introverted Intuitive Thinking Perceptive. I think the Introverted part certainly hasn’t changed, but the others may have in the last 8 months. I think it will be interesting to see.

I got some good news today, too, in the form of a friend who has been having a rough time saying that she feels better, as in not suicidal, for the first time in almost a month. That was pretty big news, and I was very glad to hear it. She’s been a good friend to me, and is a pretty cool person in general, and so hearing that she is feeling better, even if it is just a little bit, is music to my ears. 

The job hunt is still at the front of my parents’ mind, but I can see why that is; I don’t have a huge amount of structure in my life currently. I have a number of appointments that I have to make during the week, and I meet up with a number of friends, but there are large parts of my week that don’t have a lot in the way of structure. So I am looking now for someplace to work part-time while I can still continue the hunt for a more substantive job. I’m not sure where that will be, but I’ll be talking with my parents about it on Sunday. 

Finally, my birthday is coming up – it is this Saturday the 14th. I’ll be turning 34 on Saturday. Birthday wishes and presents are encouraged, but not mandatory. Though there better be cake. I like cake.