Merry Christmahanakwanzadan!

So, I came down to Florida, by plane, yesterday afternoon. It meant getting up early, and braving the airport on Christmas Eve – which was quite a thing, let me tell you. There were huge lines – mostly to check baggage, which thankfully I avoided by packing everything in my backpack. Then there were the packed airplanes, which were uncomfortable, especially since the one I was on had several screaming children. But I managed to make it here with relatively little mishap.

So, I got to spend Christmas with my family – specifically, my parents and grandparents, because my sister spent the holidays with her in-laws. It was nice to see them, because I haven’t seen my grandparents in about a year, but I think it will be nice to head back to Houston. Getting some time to relax, and go out to eat, and do Christmas stuff was nice, but the arguing my parents do bothers me. I’ve brought it up before, when I was in Menninger, and they moderated it for a while, but it is back to the same old behavior now, and I just don’t like it. 

Now, I love my parents, so I’m not saying they’re bad people. I just don’t like all the arguing and complaining, even during the holidays. About the weirdest things, too – where to park for a restaurant, how someone turned a TV on or off, what flight to take for a vacation they’re planning. I can certainly bring the argument when necessary, but some of this is just so pointless that it hurts my head just being around it.

Still, though, it was good to see my family again, and they certainly seem to have enjoyed seeing me after so long, so it was definitely a worthwhile trip – though I may rethink that tomorrow night, since my plane gets back into Houston all of two hours before I go back to work. 

And, this is my 200th blog entry, on Christmas. Who loves you, huh? Merry Christmas (or appropriate seasonal greetings) to all my readers; I hope things are going well, or getting better, for all of you and your families. I know being here for Christmas has shown me how far I’ve come, as well as that there are still things I have yet to do.

I know Calla isn’t able to read this, but I’ll say it anyway – Merry Christmas, Calla. I miss you. I’m here anytime you need to talk, and if there is anything I can do to  help or be a better friend, let me know.

Holiday Workathon

Well, today at 7:30 PM marked the end of 5 days straight of working. It’s been a pretty exhausting set of days, but then it has been retail during the holidays. I invested in a ton of over-the-counter painkillers, several pairs of shoe inserts, and a back brace, but it’s really all been about pain management, not actually making it go away. It’s exhausting, both mentally and physically – having to be nice to people I don’t know, and who often aren’t terribly interested in being nice to me, is rough on an introvert.

Tomorrow, I fly to Florida, to spend some times with my parents, who I haven’t seen in several months, and with my grandparents, who I haven’t seen in a year. It’s a quick trip – leave tomorrow, come back Thursday, just in time to head right off to work again, hi ho. It should be a good trip, and hopefully it will show them just how far I’ve come since coming to Menninger back in February – man, has it really been almost ten months? Time flies. In any case, I plan to do as close to nothing as humanly possible, because my aching body has no interest in much else. 

I’ve been playing phone tag with Calla for the past few days; we seem to keep missing each other, which is really hard for me because I really miss talking to her. I keep hearing that she’s doing well from another friend of hers, but second-hand info just doesn’t feel like enough. Calla is important to me, and I care about her; I like hearing from her. Good news is good news, of course, but I’d prefer to hear it from her. As the prophet Jagger has said, though, you can’t always get what you want – but sometimes, you get what you need. I don’t know what it is I need, which is, of course, confusing, but I’m hoping I figure it out.

S, to recap – work exhausting, family visit impending, Christmas good, Calla confusing.Life is strange, but good. I hope to have another update for y’all tomorrow or Wednesday, but if not, Merry Christmahanakwanzudan!

Countdown

Not a lot to report, again. I’ve been watching a lot of Supernatural these days, and despite a lot of it just being popcorn-munching drama, there are some surprisingly deep parts of the show, if you look hard enough. It has a lot to say about family and how we (and the main characters, the Winchesters) see it. It also has some interesting commentary on the nature of evil, and whether monsters can be good and humans can be evil. It adds in a lot of elements of Judeo-Christian mythology; the banal, slimy evil of demons and Hell, the indifference and disdain of the angels from Heaven, the absence of god from the board – though, as I finish the 7th season, still never any mention of Jesus. Maybe I’m influenced by the Supernatural and Philosophy book I got two weeks ago, though.

Calla has been pretty silent lately, at least in regards to me, but I choose to take that as a good sign, a sign that she is trying to concentrate on the work she has at her new treatment center and not be distracted by me. I am quite distracting, after all. It means I don’t hear from her very often, true, but I have faith that if something were to go wrong, she would get in touch with me. So, until she chooses to contact me, there is little I can do but hope and wait.

I’ve been continuing to read up on Borderline Personality Disorder, among other things, and I have Brene Brown’s newest book on my reading list, but right now, during the holiday season, most of my reading tends to be of the more fantastic variety. I’ve been reading a number of RPGs lately, especially Dungeon World, and they are pretty heavily on the narrative side, but mostly they’re just reading to keep the gears in my head working, just not in high gear. 

As Christmas approaches, so, too, does another milestone – I have almost 200 posts on this bad boy of a blog. If all goes well, in a poetic turn, I hope to hit 200 on either Christmas Day or Christmas Eve.. It’s not a groundbreaking milestone, and nothing special will happen when I hit 200, I just thought it would be a nice little thing to happen. And with that, I end the update; I’ll add more when I have news.